Skin & thoughts
You're branded on my skin and my thoughts
So deeply that I'm scarred
By the strength of your passion.
Ending each day in a fevered haze
My skin in agony
That only your touch can relieve.
Sometimes, I don't know if I'm feeling my feelings
Or yours.
On any given day,
Everything's mixed up
In a hot & beautiful way.
Maybe
I was happier before
Emptier but happier.
Now
I have this constant want
A dull torture that never ends
And yet, I choose this
Over that.
This thing between you and me
It's mutating magic
Otherworldly, supernatural
Woven out of the threads of our desire
My favorite place to be?
In your thoughts.
I don't always have the luxury of crying
Letting all that pain flow away
The hurt lost in a river of salty tears
Allowing calm to take over, at least temporarily
I'm not always alone, you know
All I can do then, is swallow lump after lump
The tears frozen in my throat
The hurt balled up in my chest
Only a stray drop trickling out of my eye,
Nearly unseen.
Let me kiss old photos of you
Push my love through the barriers of time
And hope that you feel the echoes of my desire
All through the years of your existence.
A kiss for every version of you
Young and old
I want them all
Maybe I always did
I'm sure I always will.
I oscillate between misery and arousal
Teary and hurting one moment
Nauseous with desire the next
My insides a chaos no one can make sense of
But you.
If I kiss old photos of you,
Will they time travel?
Would you feel my lips
Through the barriers of time?
When you sleep, I almost feel
Like I'm taking advantage of you
Enjoying uncensored access to your sweet thoughts
Of me and us
Kissing you when I like
And invading your dreams at will
I'm sorry if you haven't been sleeping too well, mein Schatz
But I can't help but take advantage
And I think I might do it again
Tonight.
Every night, you tour my body
Redefining 'slow travel'
With your endless kisses
And searching caresses
Ever curious, ever thirsty
To discover more.
Is it all just in my head?
The little games we play
You and I
In our secret universe
That straddles space & time
To make it seem
As though your fingers were entwined in mine
But it'll never come to be -
It's impossible.
Our lips shall never meet
It's forbidden.
But I hope you'll do
Something you'll regret
Because for sure, I won't.
But in the meantime,
What do I do with this crippling desire?
All this pent-up fire?
Soar high, like an untamed bonfire?
Stoke me no further. No further.
Or I shall curtain the whole world in flames
Just to reach where you are -
Together in oblivion at last.
My thoughts find their way to you
The way homing pigeons find their way home.
Even when I don't mean to,
Inevitably, I find myself thinking
Sweet thoughts of an even sweeter you. ❤️
