For what was never meant to be

My thoughts find their way to you

The way homing pigeons find their way home.

Even when I don't mean to,

Inevitably, I find myself thinking 

Sweet thoughts of an even sweeter you.


Let's have a drink together

Share a few heady sips 

To compete with the giddiness you make me feel 

Look into each other's eyes

And try not to shiver too hard

Or swoon, from the intensity of it all.

Let's have a drink together 

And steadily blur the edges

As we attempt to use words 

Even as our souls speak volumes already

In a language older than time.

Let's have a drink together 

And let the night take us under its wings

Two creatures with twin flames in our hearts

Drawn helplessly to each other 

Like magnets of desire.


In the light of day, when all things are abuzz, it's hard to feel anything at all. I work, I reply to mails, I reply to mails, I eat when my tummy rumbles, and I have a catnap when my head aches. But in the darkness of dusk, when I'm all alone, and everything is quiet, it's impossible not to feel my heart ache.


Feelings

Do you sometimes wish

That like the vampires of pop culture,

You had a switch for your feelings

To turn them on and off,

As easily as you do the lights

Just blessed darkness when your feelings are off

Safe, peaceful, silent.

And stomach-churning chaos when your feelings are on

Intense, painful, arousing.

Like the vampires of pop culture

(Yes, them again),

I'm afraid I feel my feelings too strongly

At any given point in time,

Just seconds away from bursting into flames

From the smoldering heat of my emotions.


There's one battle I lose

Every single time

Every single day

And that's the battle not to think of you

Oh, how hard I try

To push you away

Give you some space

And fill my mind with something else

But you know my mind

It's always had a mind of its own.

And so, there you are

Stuck like glue

In the carpet of my conscience

Bound to every thought

And every sigh

Sometimes in the foreground

And sometimes in the background (thank God for that!)

But always there.

Always.

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